Afraid to Talk?

Exodus 4

10 But Moses pleaded with the Lord, “O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.”

11 Then the Lord asked Moses, “Who makes a person’s mouth? Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see? Is it not I, the Lord?

12 Now go! I will be with you as you speak, and I will instruct you in what to say.”

If you’ve read my personal development blog, you’ll know that I suffered with social anxiety for my whole life. Only after finding Yahuwshua did I realise that I can talk, not through myself, but through the Lord because the Lord gives me confidence and strength every time. No amount of medication helped me this was a spiritual issue. As I look ahead in my life, I wonder if I’ll be able to cope with things. I’m truly living by faith and not by sight. I’m trying my utmost to trust in the Lord and know that He is behind me in every social situation, giving me the confidence to speak.

13 But Moses again pleaded, “Lord, please! Send anyone else.”

14 Then the Lord became angry with Moses. “All right,” he said. “What about your brother, Aaron the Levite? I know he speaks well. And look! He is on his way to meet you now. He will be delighted to see you.

15 Talk to him, and put the words in his mouth. I will be with both of you as you speak, and I will instruct you both in what to do.

16 Aaron will be your spokesman to the people. He will be your mouthpiece, and you will stand in the place of God for him, telling him what to say.

17 And take your shepherd’s staff with you, and use it to perform the miraculous signs I have shown you.”

It says here, ‘the Lord became angry with Moses’. The Hebrew word for anger is ‘Awph’ to flare the nose. Yahuwah probably just did a heavy sigh as he knew Moses ws more than capable of completing his task, but in his mercy spared him the so called embarassment Moses would have felt.

Well the Lord doesn’t want us to fear, He doesn’t want us to be afraid, so He allowed for His brother to speak for Moses, although it would be Moses’ word. Using myself as an example the Lord knows that I doubt in my abilities to say any of the things on this website to anyone as i don’t think i can speak well at all. I’d definitely get tongue tied and forget some important things, i’d get confsed, forget the main point, wouldn’t know where to start, gees it worries me just thinking about. Its a shame really because i would love to share but i can’t help it. I love the ability to just write down what i’m thinking as its the only way i can truly express myself and edit any bits that go wrong… I’m thinking of become an author [in my spare time] and writing self help books, books regarding Hebrew etc, basically stuff on this website plus also motivational things. Public speaking is a no go area. Ultimately its up to us and the Lord will help us in achieving our dreams. Only we can hold ourselves back by not fulfilling what he had in store for us so be bold and courageous and he will strengthen you.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: